God’s gift

I met my discipler last sunday, her name is Mae. She is really nice. It’s really refreshing because before we were the ones discipling other youth now, someone is dicipling me. Me and Philip met our disciplers and we thank God for their lives. When I met Ate Mae, I discerned that she is a true person. Although I don’t know her that well but I’m very comfortable talking to her. She’s like a BIG Sister. (I never had a Big Sister) So meeting her was new but at the same time very comfortable. After the Service, Ianne (A newly sister-friend of mine) approach me and escorted me to her. Then she smiled at me and we talked for a few moments. She explained to me about her role and my role… and I just nodded at her. But what shock me… and made me cry… right there and there… when she called me… “God’s gift”. She said, “Ah! you are God’s gift to me.” Right there and there I cried in front of her.

Why?
Imagine you see… a heartbroken, wounded person then you smile at her and say, “You know? you’re God’s gift to me”. What would you feel?

Right there and there. I felt Hope rising up again in my heart, my mind and my spirit. I thought that I was broken and no one likes me anymore (Except God, Philip and My Family). Also there were already negative feedbacks that they heard from the church we left so we didn’t really know what and how to act… but Ianne said, “The Old has gone! the new has come. You are very much welcome here, we don’t care about what they say. We care about you!”

Then suddenly… You hear someone saying, “You’re God’s gift”

Truly like what Bro.Bing (discipler of Philip) said before… “What God opens.. no one can close it.. and what God closes no one can Open it.” Although we felt before that someone close the door… but because God has set us free, opened the heavens for me and Philip… no one can close it.

Then I asked Philip to draw me something… and I saw him prayed before sketching and when he finished the drawing.. We were amazed at the drawing. It is like God spoke to us and confirmed what Bro.Bing said… Here is the drawing.

The difference…

God – waiting for you to come back into His arms. Doesn’t force you.

satan - summoning you. you have to come back to him. whether you like it or not.

Think about it?

Our Side and blessings

This is posted in my wordpress blog, I did not intended to post in facebook. But because everytime I update in wordpress the blog post imports in facebook. This is only to clarify my side. Because I don’t want to lose my “Integrity”

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“What did she say to you?”
“she explained, ‘you got his laptop, stayed for 3 weeks and when it returned to them the memory was different.”
“Eh? Although I know programs, I don’t know how to change the memory of the laptop @.@ anyway, what What else did they say?”
“That you guys are planting a seed of rebellion”

@.@ These are the conversation I got when I went to our church yesterday. I know they don’t care about our past, but I was curious what really did they (the church we left) say? I got so hurt that they spread out lies and twisted everything…

I plan to be silent. Because I love God. But just like what he said, last August 2, 2009… “There is a time to be silent and a time to speak out”. And now this is the time to speak out.

So here is the true story (God is our witness and also my family who were there). This is my side. At least you will know. Okay let’s start ^_^ (It’s Long but hear me out)

My Health & Body deteriorated and I got so sick last August 4, 2009. I needed the rest so my family confiscated my phone because so many people are texting me. (Actually it started August 3, 2009 when I came back from church after the meeting.)

August 5, 2009 (Morning) a fellow co-leader with another co-leader, came to our house, and I told him, “I am sorry bro I can’t go to the meeting because I needed to rest” (there was an important meeting that time and I had to be there). But I gave my Laptop to him for the Meeting and told him, “You can operate it right? and just give it back when the meeting is done”. After that, my sister said, “Why do you trust them so much? That is your Laptop and not their laptop”. I said, “Well they will give it back, they need the laptop because the datas where there” (Although the datas of the Church has been already been transferred 3 times at the pastor’s laptop. And I even gave them a copy of a CD for their Files, my own USB)

So I thought it was Okay.

At that night, after the laptop was sent  back; My sister text them to pray for me because it was Prayer meeting that time. Then morning came August 6, 2009, that same co-leader came and  again, asked for my Laptop.. and again I gave it to him. He said they will transfer files. I told him, I already transferred everything and he said, “It was deleted Te chette.” So okay..  I know he saw my condition (I know he did) That was around 10am (if I am not mistaken). I thought everything was Ok. I slept and rest for Friday and Saturday.  Then my condition started to get well again but still slowly recovering, since I have a commitment to the Music team, and I got my phone back (Saturday, August 8, 2009); I text the Music Team and ask them if they are Okay and I text Pastor that I am already Okay. But then suddenly, when another leader text me… I discerned something is wrong and I found out that there was an order from the pastor, not only that he also ordered all the youth to ignore us and do not communicate with us and it hurt me and I got too emotional and because of that, it triggered my condition… and again… my sister confiscated my phone and told me, “See!!! I told you so! I’ll take your phone! Do not go to church tomorrow. Just Rest”

Again, Philip and I have a commitment and we do not want to sacrifice the service that Sunday (August 9, 2009) Philip came at our house, he checked my condition, got the laptop and went to church. Then I don’t know why but the Holy Spirit spoke to me, as I was laying on my bed… and Jesus comfort me and readied me for what will happen. (I honestly love what Jesus did that time; because if He didn’t, and then I will find the news… maybe I will be dead because of the emotional stress that could trigger heart failure)

So when Philip came back, He took a deep breath and told me “Labsie, don’t be shock, just get ready to hear what happened…” and I just stared at him and he started to talk about what happened, and he was crying.

What happened then?
When Philip came to the church, there was already a new laptop, new staffs and he was restricted and forcibly restricted to seat at the multimedia seat. And from leaders to members and even workers; he was like a wind. The Pastor told him to go to the office and He yelled at him saying, “You and Sister Chette are on-hold, so do not go to your place and sit just like a plain members now” and Philip asked him again to clarify what he heard because he was so confused at that time about the pastor’s order, he asked 3 to 4 times, and his voice became more and more angrier and louder. During the preaching, he  pointed out that even satan could appear as an angel of light, so what more is his minions. He also said, that when you are a slave you have no right to complain (which is partly right but isn’t that we are not slaves anymore? but a friend/children/bride of God?” Philip didn’t know why but he kept saying “Thank you God. Thank you God” as he hears the preaching; because God impressed to him that we had done nothing wrong. We have a clear and clean conscience that we have serve God faithfully, fearfully and passionately. And then during the ministering, God told Philip, “This is not the end; but the beginning.”

After the AM Service, the pastor and Philip talked, Philip tried to explain what had happened to me; but he said it is foul because he is not yet my husband and he did not give us consideration in anything. Plus he also told Philip that I don’t accept his calls or text. (I was sick and my phone is not in my hands)  He also told Philip that he did not received any text from me. Which is a LIE because my sister texted him and I text him saturday.

“What about the Letter?” I asked him, cause I gave Ptr and Excuse letter.
“He didn’t care about it,” Philip said,
“I see…”

So when Philip finished the story, He asked for my condition, but I told him. I am okay because God already told me to get ready. . Afternoon came… Two youth went to the house and gave the UBS to philip and demanded the datas (which of course has been transferred for many times already) So my family decided to format everything. My sister together with Philip formatted my laptop. (In the first place it was mine not them)  And we thought that was the end… but no… After their PM Service, Elders of the Church went to the gate demanding again to get my laptop and the datas and threatening to sue us if we don’t comply.

“Is this how a Godly Church operates? Threatening to sue you?”

That’s the half of the story. But let’s stop for awhile and reason it out.

WHAT WOULD I DO TO THEIR DATAS? THEY HAVE NO VALUE TO ME, NOR TO ANYBODY. AS A GOD FEARING SERVANT OF GOD, I WON’T EVEN THINK OF SELLING OR GIVING IT TO ANYONE. BESIDES WHO WOULD BUY IT?

Anyway, the reason why I had to let this all out it because we found out that we are being bad mouthed to all the Body of Christ, Actually last Sunday (August 16, 2009) after their service, they had their emergency meeting and sadly… a certain Leader… said to her cousin.. “beware of them… they are agents of satan”

Truthfully and honestly, I don’t want to do this… but just to defend myself to their false accusations, and you heard ‘their side’ now hear ‘mine’ 

It is not Pride. The reason why we won’t come back to that Church is because we don’t trust anyone anymore. if its about Forgiving, we have… but we don’t trust them anymore so we are not going back there. They said if the members no longer believes and trust the church leadership He should leave in peace. For God’s exit door is widely open for him or her. So How come they won’t let us go in peace? We are happy now, God has led us into a promising Church. A very different Church. Its a Church where we feel we belong; and just as what God said… “This is not the end, but the beginning”

Also If the people in this church are like this? I won’t even think of the position that I will leave, I will flee away there fast. I won’t even care about loosing the position. I know that when we have a calling, no matter where church God will lead us… He’ll fulfill that calling.

Now if you, reader… are a part of that church. Please let us all move forward. We will not come back so don’t expect us anymore. But just think about it, if we are really an agent of satan… when we are at your church, we could have destroyed it. But no friends.. at least God knows, we were big contributors in the success of your church.

So right now… just let us have peace.

On the other side… Philip has a new blessing! We felt as if we were box in the old church. That our faith to God became so small that we became so unselfish that we forgot balance. Why you ask? before God led us there (Well we know that time God led us there) We have what other Christians called, “Super faith” even though the “term” is kinda weird. Like what is this? well…for instance, I ask God to give me this… and immediately He’ll give it to me. But when we became leaders of that said church, we forgot to pray for ourselves. We only pray for others. It should be balance. So now, God reminded us. And Philip got His blessing! A New Laptop and a New Phone *_*

But you know what’s surprising? Philip got his laptop August 2009, while I got mine August 2003 ^^ Coincidence? I don’t believe in Coincidence ^^

 

The New beginning and calling

When I left the other church, I knew that we are going back to O. But I am prepared for it. I really don’t care if I have a position or not in the ministry. As long as I serve the King of kings and the Lord of lords, then that is enough.

But I have learned that when it is your “calling”. Whether where and what family (church) God will send you, surely He will continuously call you and fullfill it. As I was getting ready to move in to the other church (which God led us as we prayed for a week); God spoke in my heart that night. He said, “I will not leave you empty. I will replace everything that the enemy took away from you. If I ask you to put something down, It is because I want you to pick up something better.”

I didn’t understand. But I didn’t ask anymore.

Going to that church, I was so nervous. It was like the first time. I was full of worries and doubt. (What if they don’t like us?, Are they going to send us away just like the other churches in the past?) A leader once said, “Maybe there is something wrong with us that is why we are always being misunderstood.” We ask God “Is there really something wrong with us? if there is… please change it because we want to have a fresh start and like you said this is the “BEGINNING”. 

But as I entered the building and took one step in the stairs… my troubles went away and I can’t stop crying hearing the pure voice of the Worship leader and the congregation. As I take every step on the stairs, I realized this is the “Feeling” that too much overwhelming love of God, that I missed. So basically when I got inside the church I was full of tears that they thought I would break down. I wanted to kneel down but God told me I dont have too and He embraced me so much and said, “Let me comfort you, You’ve been a hurt a lot”

Then, after the service… a certain youth approach us and I was thinking, “Oh this is like what we do… they are going to invite us to their youth service etc.” but I was so shock when she said, “You’re a woship Leader right, please commit to this church. You can approach our music head for more details.”

I was so shock.

So this is what God told me.
Philip once said, “When you have a calling, no matter where we are… God will fullfill that calling.”

But I controlled myself to commit first. I told them that I’ll take one step at the time. Even though I was so excited to sing in front with these dynamic, united and anointed team. I will take one step at the time.

I thank God that He led us into this Church. Truly that when He said, “This is not the end, but the beginning” He meant what He said,

I realize many things…

…THAT GOD WANTS ME TO REST -_-
Last Week My body fell instantly. I was *almost* rush to the Hospital but because through Prayers, I wasn’t. Though I needed a lot of Rest. And thus because of that, I couldn’t go to the meeting; as well as received calls or texts from church, and thus it created a *HUGE* misunderstanding. But I personally think this is God’s timing. As Sis.Emily always say, “You need to rest, It’s true that serving God, He will ordain you.. but how can you serve God if you’re already sick or worst, not here on earth” (meaning dead). And sadly some people thought that we are Power grabbers. So we decided to serve God without Position. No matter what happens in the future… Philip and I talked about this. Before we will once again be involve in the leadership of the church (if God gives me another chance in the future) then; we have to check first our family and our career. True that Jesus once said, “leave everything and follow me”. But when Peter left his family, his family were okay. (been researching it really deep)

… THAT AFTER GREAT INJUSTICE COMES GREATER BLESSINGS! ^O^!!!
So since I have a lots of free time; except when I am at school. So when I’m really well. I am going to take my driving lessons! Yeah! And Since I am not much in the church I was thinking of visiting the orphanage. (its been a long time since I did that… before when I was a newly born again Christian) The Church doesn’t know that Ate Chette is an orphanage visitor hehehe. And I was thinking of doing food feeding especially in Madapdap.. It’s been so long… But I have to save first I was also thinking of opening a dollar account and will work on the Publishing House. I took these things for granted because I was always in a beck and call situation before.

… THAT LEADERSHIP SHOULD BEGIN AT HOME ^_^ (Joshua 24:15)

As a leader, where should your influence begin? A good answer can be drawn from the life of Joshua. For him – as for other leaders wanting to make an impact beyond their lifetimes – it began at home. Before anything else, Joshua took responsibility for the spiritual life of his family. Joshua’s leadership of his family was more important than his leadership of the country. It may sound ironic, but when leaders put their families first, the community benefits. When leaders put the community first, both their families and the community suffer. Starting at home is always the key to affecting others in a positive way. Because Joshua had his priorities right and had led his household well, he gained credibility to lead the entire house of Israel. If you have a family, put them first in your leadership. There’s no legacy like that of the positive influence leaders can exercise with their family.  – John Maxwell

Reading this Email really rebuked me. You are considered as a Hypocrite when you preach or stand in the pulpit but you are in bad terms with your family. That’s why before Jesus started His ministry at the age of 30, although when He was 12, He went to the temple to preach but still in his years… 12 – 29… He was a carpenter. His family first. Peter left everything but he is ok with his family. That’s also the reason why Paul didn’t marry hehe. and Timothy is in good terms with his family. The thing is.. how can you have a GOOD Testimony if your family is not in good terms with you? Also as I was meditating the Bible… I saw that when you Honor your parents… It is the only commandment that has a PROMISE. So next time.. before I will commit to the Ministry… once again… I have to check my relationship with my parents first… and when its good. Then that’s the perfect time for me. I guess I was very overwhelmed of the promotion that I forgot that I am already a hypocrite. As long as I am okay in the eyes of God and in my family… then I’m good. God will use me mightily. But right now I have to fix first my family. I guess this is the reason why these things happened.

Halleluiah Praise the Lord

“Gather them All” – God (An Advertisement)

Posted also in http://christianblogs.clan.su 

Last week as I was browsing online during my break; I had the time to search on google and one of the subject I searched was the “Christian Bloggers” and reading some of them encouraged me and empowered me a lot. Then, a wild idea came through my mind and I told myself, “It would be nice to really have a dedicated list of Christian Bloggers in one page and when people needed to read Christian Blogs they will just go there.” Suddenly, when I had my quiet time that night… God spoke to my heart (through the Holy Spirit) and said, “Gather them all”. Well… I asked God, “Why do I have too?” (I know He was referring to the Christian Blogs) and as I opened my Bible He revealed to me two verses. Hebrews 3:13 and 1 Thessalonians 5:11

and so now I bring to you: http://christianblogs.clan.su/ So if you’re a CHRISTIAN and a BLOGGER please Join the Listing. Help me to fullfill this mission. By just Clicking that Website and fill up the form.

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Christian Blogging is not about “Just Blogging”. As Christian Bloggers we must always put in our hearts that Christian Blogging is a Ministry. It is a Sacred Mantle that God has put in our hearts and our lives. Christian Blogging is not very simple. It is Touching people’s lives (Believer or Unbeliever). Whether people deny or not, their souls are thirsty for the Living Word.

and today, in our generation, (What the world called, Generation X). If you would look all around, you’ll be depressed. No wonder if you have everything.. you don’t feel happy. You’re searching for something. People are looking for the thing that can fill the void in their lives.

And that’s what Christian Bloggers is all about. TO ENCOURAGE. TO LIFT UP. TO SHARE THE LOVE OF GOD. TO HELP PEOPLE WHO ARE SEEKING. It’s not just about Sharing your Life as a Christian but SHARING YOUR LIFE AND SHARING JESUS to the Whole World.

The Internet is known as the BEST and POWERFUL MEDIA that can influence people’s lives. So if you’re a Christian, Always remember that you have the MISSION to share JESUS to these Billions of people reading your Blogs.

Christian Blog is a Ministry.

No time for fear

Reading the posts dated: March 2 – When God visited my Room and January 6 – Chette.. the Worshipper of God… made me realize that on those dates… God has been “readying me” to take the big step.

What’s the big step you ask?
For the past month, God promoted me into a bigger position in His Church here in JIL Angeles. I’m heading up the VIA/JAM now in JIL Angeles uh.. not only Angeles but the whole Area19a (composed of Angeles, Magalang, Mabalacat and Sn.Luis) and uh.. what’s VIAJAM? um.. The Music Team to be precise.

This is my Ministry Priority right now; I’m the OIC of the Music Team here in JIL Angeles… but God, Ptr.Arnel, Sis.Luz and Sis.Bheng already informed me that I should be ready to handle this team now meaning to be the Head. Ever since God has called me to serve Him; He already told me that He will use me mightily in the field of Music. Although I don’t understand Him that time, I thought He will just use me mightily as a Worship Leader… I didn’t know that Jesus visiting me in my room… had a big reason behind it.

But handling Music Team is not a child’s play. Sis.Edith Mendoza (JIL Worldwide Worship Leader head) said that before. You are not just accountable for your team… but as well for the congregation. How can you train them Physically and Spiritually? How can you prepare them for a spiritual battle every Sunday? How can you maintain their growth? It is totally nerve-racking.

Not only that…

If Handling VIAJAM or WAM is nerve-racking then becoming a PULPIT MINISTER is more than nerve-racking! Its not enough that you are a master of Speech Club, or you are very familiar talking to the crowd. Becoming a Pulpit Minister is not an Easy Job. Some people say, “If you are “dumb” become a pastor.” Preaching and teaching the Word of God is not an easy task. Because it is not about how you deliver the message but its how about you put the message in the hearts of those who are listening to you. Delivering the message of God is not about Skill or your pronunciation. It’s about sharing your relationship with God. Talking not only to the Physical senses of people but as well as their spiritual senses. 

To God be the Glory, my Spiritual maturity has been increasing rapidly eversince March 1, 2009 (When God had visited me). But to tell you frankly, I do not know whether to be happy or frightened. Yes. I should be happy because this is the will of God… for His Children to be more matured Spiritually. But I am frightened because, It happened so fast! and I feel like I couldn’t go on with the flow.

“No time for Fear” - this what the Holy Spirit impressed upon my heart. This is the time of faith and determination. This is the time of Spiritual growth and the time to trust God 100%! This is the time to press on towards the Goal. I’ve been running away many times in the past years… but this time, I have to stand up and face to face accept the challenges that God has put in my life.

“NO TIME FOR FEAR
IT’S TIME FOR FAITH AND DETERMINATION”

…So Help me God, for You have said in Your Word in
“Zech 4:6: Not by our might, nor our power… but BY YOUR SPIRIT”

I AM NOTHING WITHOUT CHRIST

and God said, “No Coke”

I have to share another funny testimony… I really like sharing funny testimonies because it enlightens people and second because it gives people a gentle rebuke when someone read these testimonies.

So right now I have another funny testimony to share, it happened last Saturday. (March 21, 2009) at 1pm. After the dedication at Church (coz I lead the Worship in that dedication); I told philip ”I want to drink coke” and then philip said, “Let’s go to KFC and let’s eat lunch” So we went there I was so excited. “Finally! I’ll be able to drink coke once again”

and then I heard God spoke, and He said… “No Coke”

I was like… “What???” But then I tested the spirit and again God said, “No Coke”

So I knew it was God… -_- but yeah, even we are Christians we are not perfect so I just ignored God’s voice (hehe I’m bad aren’t I? ) so I still told myself, “I will drink coke and no one can stop me” even God said, “No coke”

So when we entered KFC and we ordered 2 meals (Chicken and Coke or Pepsi) I was sooo excited. Suddenly, philip came back from the line and told me, “Chette… they don’t have Coke or Pepsi.. they only have Ice-Tea and Orange Juice”

I was like… “WAAAHHH!!!! my Coke!” But I calmly said, “Ok.. Orange Juice…” but I put it in my heart that I will buy Coke after eating lunch at KFC…

and then God suddenly said, “If you drink Coke and Disobeyed me… your stomach will ache”

Yet, as stubborn as I can get.. if I want Coke.. I will drink a Coke.

At that night, I drank coke and after I drank coke.. I had a stomache…

hehehe…

Sometimes, Us… His Children most especially in minor cases… there are times we unexpectedly “disobey our Father God” or perhaps ignores Him in little things. But God doesnt really count it if its small or a big thing

What He counts and What He wants to know if we will Obey Him or Not.

I was reminded. Thank you Lord for the Rebuke…

When God visited my Room

I am subscribed to the JIL Bible text and through texting, when there’s a blessing and I have a load…. everytime my phone has load, the JIL Bible is sending me a text message with a Bible verse and automatically I am donating 2 pesos and 50 centavos in the JIL I-Care Ministry.

last February 28, 2009…  the text message I received was this:

The Dayspring from on High has visited us – Luke 1:78 – Our lives here on earth will always have suffering and pain and it through faith that we will see the light. The heart of a believer will always be able to see God’s guiding light through everything.

So I was encouraged and I thank God for that message. But I didn’t know that He would do something greater than using a message.

You see… last Night (February 28, 2009). After VIA/JAM (Music) Practice I was knockdown and went to sleep. But at exact 1am of March 1, 2009, I woke up.. and as I open my eyes, my surroundings was full of yellow. Everything were sparkling! The JIL Posters, the windows, the walls…the computer, the bed.. everything was YELLOW! it was strange because my wall is blue and my electric light is color blue… but it was all yellow… It’s like the sun is shinning upon me. I had to rub my eyes to know its true and it stayed there for 10 – 15 minutes.

As I was looking in my surroundings, I felt my eyes teared and I suddenly prayed. I felt God’s presence upon me and I worshipped Him and the Holy Spirit overwhelmed me so I got up and danced in the spirit as I was singing “Holy Spirit Rain Down” when the light left me… I felt refresh… I felt that I was re-charge. That a new spirit was within me and my tiredness left me.

I texted some of my Keyleaders at Church to interpret and all were connected to the word “Light”

Sis. Bheng said it was the “Light”, Ptr. Arnel  said, “It was Light and Hope” and Bro.Lito said, “It was Light and Recharging of Spirit.”

and after leading Praise and Worship for 2 services. (after my DA for almost a month because of my character) God embraced me and told me “Please my daughter… serenade me more… I longed for more worshippers that really serenades me”. His presence at our Church last PM Service was really awesome. Many were healed, refreshed and all of us were touched by Him.

And then I was reminded by Darlene Zschech’s sentence about Worship. “Worship is giving worth to God. It is not the ‘after experience’ rather the ‘before experience’. Some Christians wants to feel ‘the experience’ that is why they worship.” Although the ‘Experience’ will follow once you Worship. But Worship is not like that, Worship is Ministering GOD (Now I understand) It is giving the glory, giving the worth to God, it is pleasing and tickling the heart of God

Worship is expressing our Love to God. And as Worshippers we must grow deeper… and really deeper in love with God. So that once we lead Praise and Worship, we can share that Love to the congregation and the congregation will follow and they will experience the mighty move of the Holy Spirit, like they never experienced Him before.

Lol… just a sidenote: Philip last night said, “Thank you Lord, I got my dream… He love you more than me now… I can live in peace now.. I can die happily now”

lol..

I can’t get enough of Jesus, coz I am really in love with Jesus.
edit: I edited the dates… kekeke… mistakes.. March 1 is sunday

Chette.. the Worshipper of God

If you search my name in google, you’ll find a fanlisting about “Chette the writer”; “Chette the Movie Maker” and you’ll find pages such as “BlessedChette”; “Chette the Christian” ; “chette the Pagemaker” But you won’t see a page about “Chette the worshipper of God”

Some people Online may not know this but last December 2007, God promoted me as one of His Worship leaders at JIL Angeles.

As 2008 coming at end, there was a sudden situation happened and it made me stop leading the congregation in Worship. It was sudden outburst that causes me to stop leading the people in worship. It was me… but I had a lot of warnings before it happened, (I was stubborn yeah) But as I was in the process of Disciplinary Action; God reminded me of the things that I have forgotten… the things He told me before I became a Worship leader, the things that I must treasure. And I would like to share it all of you, as if this is the right time.

Before I became a Christian, I sing songs in Secular. I joined contests at school, in public, I do Karaoke and I was raised up in a family of Musicians, I was in a Choir in the early days and my family. Every time I sang in public, people will gather and they thought that I was a professional singer.

Then, suddenly God arrested me and told me… “You were once just a voice… now I’ll make you my voice… and you will be my worshipper”

I refused. Bluntly. Directly. Refused.

We attended the Calvary Temple in Angeles and the musicians approached me and told me to join the Music Team.

I refused. Bluntly. Directly. Refused.

Then God brought us to JIL Angeles and the VIA Head (Bro.Vic, that time.) approached me and said to join the Music Team…

I refused. Bluntly. Directly. Refused.

But before God’s conviction was there… so little by little I attended Practice… but still the commitment wasn’t there.

I told God… “God, I am not worthy.. I used to sing in secular and now you want me to sing for you?” Even though, I already worship God in my private closet and quiet time. every time I say that.. God kept telling me that He will use me in the Music Ministry.

2003 – 2005… I started to do some special numbers at Church and I told myself, “Okay fine.. God here.. I am already… is this enough?” and He said, “No”

Then 2007… Our church Pastor (Ptr. Arnel Arcega) called me in my cellphone as I was working; He told me, “Sis.Chette, please support our VIA/JAM. You have a calling in the Music Ministry. Do not ignore that calling. God has been calling you eversince but you’re ignoring it” I was shocked. shocked not because I was elated. No. Actually I felt so ashamed. I ignored the voice of God and He had to use Ptr. Arnel to deliever His Message.  That night, I cried out to God and told God.. “Okay Father, Let your will be done and I am sorry for ignoring your voice”

Then I joined the Music Team and commit myself to God and to the VIA/JAM Team of Angeles. Every Saturday I go to church early as possible because I was sooo excited to do Practice.

Then 2008 (I think March 20? I remembered it was holy week) I attended the Shepherding God’s flock I think? in JIL SF… (Correct me if I am wrong) and the speaker was Reverend Joey Crisostomo. It was the first time I heard Him and meet Him in Person… and His sensitivity of the Holy Spirit is quite Amazing. As He was preaching; He sings and we can really feel the presence of God (as He was talking, there were goose bumps).

After that Night, I told to myself… “Lord, I want to have the same Sensitivity of the Holy Spirit just like the sensitivity of Reverend Joey Crisostomo” and He told me, “Are you ready? Are you sure you can handle it?”When He ask me that question I ask Him, “Why the question?” and He didn’t answer back and just led me to the Verse when David was singing songs for God, praising Him for all the wonderful things He has done to David.

Then around August? (Correct me if I am wrong again) Philip attended the JIL Leadership Summit and when he came back, He told me what happened, Share me many teachings. I was elated! But there is this one thing that He shared me that I couldn’t forget. Philip said that the music is really good; all the KKBs were shouting Halleluiah! Praise the Lord! And everyone was dancing in the presence of God, and worship God. But when Rev. Joey Crisostomo stood in the Pulpit, He yelled at everyone and said, “Leave at once! you Carnals!” and everyone were shocked, and then He said, “Please do not grieve the Holy Spirit.. Do not grieve the One I love…” Then he called his child and told his child to play the piano and then he said, “You know, if I wasn’t one of the people being respected in the JIL Ministry? I am no longer here in JIL, Many worship leaders are angry with me. But I don’t care… I do not want to grieve the Holy Spirit.. Please do not grieve the One I Love”

God thought me one thing as I listened to Bro.Philip how he shared that teaching, after that… the Holy Spirit came down and everyone kneeled down and cried. (It was the beginning of the preaching)

I learned that leading a Praise and Worship is not easy. Just because the people were jumping and worshipping God it is already Ok. As Worship Leaders we must be sensitive because the Holy Spirit is very sensitive. (Especially in Worship)

When God promoted me, I kept that in my mind. As I lead the Praise and Worship, I let God control me. There were times I dont have voice already but God told me to continue and when I can’t sing anymore, God will sustain me and give me a brand new voice. There are times the people thought that the music is already finished but when God speaks to my heart, “One more chorus my dear Child” I have no choice but to obey. It may seem torture for the backups and Many VIA/JAMs in our Church can testify… at Practice, there are times I can’t even sing a higher tone pero when it comes to Sunday Leading? I can sing the key even in a higher tone. It was the Work of the Holy Spirit.

There were also times, (Especially in our KKB Service) as I lead the Praise and Worship… God will speak to me and say “Kneel down my Child.. tell everyone to kneel down in my presence” It maybe absurd to those observers, but we are just following God’s command and even first timers don’t think it is “corny” for they can feel God’s presence.

But as months passed by, the devil did something, as I was treasuring that “teaching” of Reverend Joey Crisostomo in my heart, satan attack me in my personal life. Sa Family, sa mga churchmates, Sa finances, sa emotional… Just like a volcano ready to erupt in any moment.

so I needed the Youth Summit.

At the Youth Summit, when we had the chance to take a picture with Sis.Edith, Rev. Joey Crisostomo and Cong. Joel Villanueva. After the Picture taking, I had the chance to shake hands with Sis.Edith. She smiled at me and madali nyang sinabi sa akin, “Be consecrated at all times, you are very sensitive” It leaves me Blank expression, but I just smiled at her and thank her and said, “God bless po”, then I felt she imparted something to me.

Then after the Youth Summit, it was Rev. Joey Crisostomo, as I shake hands with Him and said, “God bless po” He also smiled at me and said, “You are very sensitive in the move of the Holy Spirit, Consecrate yourself  always.” And I felt as if He imparted something to me as well.

But I ignored those words and went home. “Here we go again” I was pressured at home and many things that cost me to act stubbornly and bad in front of our VIA/JAM Head that cost me to undergo DA.

Pero It was really God’s timing… as I was undergoing DA right now, God reminded me of these words that I should treasure…

Then I remembered, when I ask God for that sensitivity of the Move of the Holy Spirit, He gave it to me.. but the question “Are you ready?” marked in my mind.

Masakit pala… It hurts when we grieve the Holy Spirit, The Holy Spirit is very sensitive and when He grieves… I can feel it and It hurts… it is more hurtful than when you are being hurt by other people or your love ones. and as I was in the process of DA… God is in the process of making me understand more about the Holy Spirit.

That whenever we worship Jesus.. We worship God… and the Holy Spirit is upon us… we should serenade them.. in a soft… voice… kung pwede nga lang.. just the keyboard (Just like what Rev. Joey Crisostomo said) no drums, no guitars… just the keyboard…Also, when the Holy Spirit is convicting us… to do something, if we don’t obey him… He’ll continue to convict us but if it’s too much He’ll grieve and leave us…

As a worshipper of God, we shouldn’t be just lovers of God, of Jesus but as well as the Holy Spirit…I thank God for this reminder, and I pray that God will continue to remind me of His presence everyday and make me become more and more sensitive with the Holy Spirit.

Now I can truly answer back God… “Yes Father, I am ready. Even though it hurts to become sensitive… I wanted to, because of that, I can increase my level of worshipping You and it maybe hurtful but it’s worth it, because I Love You so much…”